At the church retreat the thing we talked about was wheither we were autthentic or not. We run around with happy smiles and are hurting or dying inside. I did that for many years. AT age 22 I started going to church and would walk in on Sunday Morning with a big smile and when someone would ask how I was, I'd lie and say I was great. but deep down inside I wasn't. Not because of my situation because I was married and had 2 babies , but because of depression. Depression gets a hold of you and doesn't want to let you go. It tells you your worthless and nobody cares about you and the world would be better off without you. It's a struggle to stay alive everyday. That's why some depressed people stay in bed with the covers over their head.

I went for many years not knowing how anyone could see worth in me. How can those people like me when I didn't like myself. I'm not sharing this to get sympathy. But to let you know that a person doesn' t have to stay that way. It took me years to realize that GOD loved me and was shaping me into someone he could use to touch others. There is actually a scripture that says, "we go through these things so we can help others" . It's hard to understand what someone is going through unless we've been there. Like the old saying, :"walk a mile in my shoes.

They gave us a little can of play-do (which was not smart cause I started making little animal shapes instead of listening to the speaker)oops!!! The play-do represented how GOD takes us as a glob and shapes us into the person HE wants us to be. Not physically but in Charactor. I like the person I am now and I know HE is not finished with me. Now when they ask me how I am I tell them "great and if I'm not there is always tomarrow." Take care until next time. Have a great day!